Happy Birthday to you...

today is my dear birthday, last night i'll be the first who wish him "Happy Birthday", even last year also i'll be the first....besides the wish, i also tell him : "Dear, from now until forever, i will always be the first who wishing u Happy Birthday"

today after class, i saw he nudge me....
he tell me that today juz a few person wish him and nobody celebrate birthday with him...
i feel that he is unhappy compare with last year....bcoz last year he received 3 cake...
after tell me all those thing, his friend call he go redbox to celebrate birthday....
suddenly his feeling change and go out in few second after told me.......
after redbox, another 'geng' of friend and his housemate have celebrate with him....
total 3 cake received by him this year....i know he is happy right now....

in this moment, he is happy and celebrate his birthday there....but me.....
alone at the room and study for saturday test....
suddenly think about my birthday.....my birthday is coming soon, 2 week later....
there is not much ppl will remember my birthday for every year.....
i think this year also will be the same....ntg happend on me...used to it d....
about last year birthday???what i tell other ppl is how happy with my birthday...
but that is not the truth....
i din hope that can received 3 cake, even juz a slide of cake also need to call ppl buy for me...
not the friend buy me automatically......
aiksss....how pity am i???

this week really feel depress, get sick last week.....sick until cant eat anything....
everyday juz drink water, eat bread, porrigge and mee.....
sometimes think that i better don eat anything....it is much more better....
Bcoz of sickness, my test for this monday also become worst, i will pass up the blank paper, if i din copy from my friend.....
the final exam coming soon and soon, my stress also become more and more....
all the ppl put the hope on me, tell me that sure i will graduate....
but i really not confident at all....
" try my best" .how many time i heard it from somewhere??
but i know that i cant do it....
i'm useless....(>_<)


write by:
-ⓛⓞⓥⓔwendy-